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Yes, I wanted to spend another week focusing on the magic of spell work. When beginning a new blog draft I mine my journals and date book to see what messages may have been left as bread crumbs throughout the week as writing prompts. The note I wrote to myself earlier last week for Friday 1/17 - the Waning Last Quarter Moon in Scorpio - was “Send yourself a message of encouragement.” Which I ignored, of course. It could be blamed on the residual tenderness of last week’s lunar eclipse, but I think that would only be a partial truth, and I’m fine with leaving it at that. Anyhow, this morning I finally got around to writing myself a new note of encouragement, and it was this above incantation/spell: yougotthis.
Does anybody else out there earnestly want to reprogram some internal thought patterns? Yeah, me too, obviously. All the time! The one that comes up fairly consistently for me is converting self doubt into constructive and confident thought patterns. What I am learning from using spelling to assist in reprogramming this particular pattern is that I can’t shift paths just like that. Snap! my witchy fingers, and I’m immediately embodied on a path of supreme confidence. It will take forward moving baby steps of affirmation. Something as simple as the above repeated spell “yougotthis” nine times. Then I read it aloud nine times. Then I type it nine times. The repetition in the spelling is intended to assist in re-steering those internal thought patterns.
But even just working with a repetition of this affirmation isn’t enough. I have to spend some time interrogating the conversion themes: constructive and confident thought patterns. Is there anything in between, and/or closer to self doubt that would get at the intention of these themes with greater efficiency or proximity? Self doubt and confidence. What else is between those two states? Honestly, I like to go straight to the thesaurus and hack at it that way. So let’s see what I can find…
Confident: Trust. Acceptance. Dependence. Spirit. Belief. Hmm, ooh, interesting. Yeah, I think belief might get a little closer to the root of the transformation I seek here. So let’s course correct that theme: I move through self-doubt to belief to confidence.
Constructive: Positive. Valuable. Beneficial. Yes, beneficial! More course correcting: I move through self-doubt to beneficial self-belief to constructive confidence. Actually, something still feels missing…
I’m recalling an earlier version of this theme that I used last Fall to call parts of myself back to myself. I call back creativity and confidence to myself. Then let’s investigate creativity…
Creativity: Inventive. Original. Prolific. And under Innovative, Constructive resurfaces. Regardless, I do like thinking about innovative self-belief. Like the belief is mine to invent as I see fit through the process. Let’s check it out all together as a theme: I move through self-doubt to innovative self-belief to creative confidence. And I could speak so much more about creativity as a word that I adore, but for the moment I’d like to simply recognize how it simultaneously embodies juicy and fire-y themes. Creative is such a positively generative word, and I love it.
Last in this spelling as reprogramming work is probably to change the spell into first-person speech:
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Perhaps you don’t have the time in your day to do this somewhat involved word investigation, then in the moment, try changing the words to a song that you hear playing in your environment. Speaking for myself, just spending a few minutes changing the lyrics to a favorite, or completely problematic, or just plain dated song can help me feel like I have more agency to reshape the thought patterns in my day. Try it!
If that feels safe, then you may be ready to dip back into your own thought patterns and hear them as a more objective listener, just someone who happens to be tuned into your thought pattern radio frequency. I’m not gonna say it’s easy to be objective with your own internal patterns. It’s not. It’s really hard. I still struggle so much. But, honestly, just sharing that reality with you all helps relieve some of that burden for me. At least for the moment.
Do you have some favorite ways of your own to use spelling to reprogram your internal thought patterns? I’d like to hear them! Are your own internal thought patterns more blissful and embodied? Great! Does this all sound too hard for you right now? That’s totally understandable. Admitting that it’s hard is a step.